Stars

I'm listening to Stars in my living room, which is sort of the bulk of the apartment I guess: living room/kitchen/dining room all in one room combo. It feels cozy especially since incense is burning and a candle and the gloomy sky turned gloomier and it's now raining. Luckily it's not coming in windows and so they're open and I can here the rain, the cars, a little bit of the world outside.

Tonight I start a dance class. I will be taking beginning modern dance at Zenon Dance School. I'm happy I signed up for it, and looking forward to whatever happens. I had a dream that I was on a stage and some music was playing and I was doing my thing, dancing to it. It turned out I had an audience and afterward there were nothing but nice things to say about my "performance." Music has always been a huge part of my life, and I went from dance to playing instruments to dancing for fun and teaching yoga. I need movement in my life. Sometimes I just want to stay on the couch and it's when I decide to get up and get into my body that life makes a little more sense for me.

I think about me teaching yoga a lot these days because I'm starting over with it. I want to be a good teacher and I feel I need to start being good to myself more so that I can. I need to get back into reading the things that inspire me, soothe my mind. I want to get more creative with music and sequencing. I need to practice at home ahead of time to get these ideas into my body so I can offer it with a smile.

There are things I miss since we moved: students, studios, teachers, roads, buildings, food, family. There are things I don't miss too: traffic, attitudes, road rage, 100 degrees in the summer, not enough nature. And that's saying a lot because I thought I did have plenty of nature where I was. Here though it's more liquidy with all those lakes, there are more green spaces, and the sky is just huge with low, fluffy clouds.

So very excited to have Ellen here in a matter of weeks, the life traveler herself, to see just what I'm talking about. I think that she of all people will appreciate the differences, the things that make this place pretty damn cool. And a Dr. Dog show the week she's here will help us all have a little Philly feel in case we miss it.